Betsy - attempted (drank 1/2 gallon of bleach)
Tim - succeeded (don't recall the details)
John - attempted twice (took pills and alcohol)
Mom - attempted many times (took pills) - succeeded (neglected herself on all levels)
Kathleen - attempted at least twice (took pills)
Me - attempted (took pills)
Karen - attempted at least twice (took pills)
And the most disturbing of all was the 11 year old child of whom I have spoken. This lovely young person, for reasons unknown to everyone who knew him, tied a belt to a low closet rod and then put it around his own neck. It was so low that he could have simply stood up. I'm not naive, I know of the "choking game", but there was no evidence that this is what he was doing. There was no evidence of anything at all - intentional or accidental. Simply the loss of, what to me, was a most beautiful person. The not knowing is really a haunting phenomenon.
And the most disturbing of all was the 11 year old child of whom I have spoken. This lovely young person, for reasons unknown to everyone who knew him, tied a belt to a low closet rod and then put it around his own neck. It was so low that he could have simply stood up. I'm not naive, I know of the "choking game", but there was no evidence that this is what he was doing. There was no evidence of anything at all - intentional or accidental. Simply the loss of, what to me, was a most beautiful person. The not knowing is really a haunting phenomenon.
I know there are more...but even this short list seems seriously too long.
What occurs to me today are all the people that I have known who have died of more "natural" causes - AIDS, cancer, etc. - didn't get to the depressive point of wanting to end their own lives. They let the disease take its time. Interesting.
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